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Is there a job where I could review every restaurant in New York City? Instead of writing the reviews I would just video them. It sounds like the perfect job and right up my alley. Going to see if anything is open after righting this post. 
Last night at I found myself at Scarlatto Restaurant & Bar with one of my best friends and her mother for our monthly dinner. Italian with Roman influences is how they described their cuisine and I would agree with that completely. When dining out for Italian I usually don't eat much throughout the day in order to save an appetite and I am glad I did. 
I arrived a few minutes before our 6:30pm reservation and found my party at the bar. Taking the bus in from Central NJ into NYC is always hit or miss. We arrived a few minutes later than what I expected and I walked the 6 blocks to the restaurant. The ladies finished their wine and we were seated immediately by the wonderful hostess. The bartender sent over the drinks we ordered at the bar an…

10 Minutes

What can you accomplish in 10 minutes? I recently took a yoga class and the instructor asked us that very question. A million thoughts were running through my head. This was the end of class and I was just thinking the 15+ things I had to get done that afternoon. However, something stopped me dead in my tracks. I am still not sure what, but I listened. The room was silent and one word escaped her lips- Meditation.

What? Is she serious? One girl in the class looked like she was about to burst out in laughter. Another turned and said, I never tried it. In that moment I sat in silence thinking about what the instructor said. After leaving the class I decided to do some more research. Maybe this could really help me in many areas. I am stressed over finding a job. I am in constant limbo. I am working on my anxiety. This could be another tool.

I found myself in the corner of Barnes & Noble reading books on Meditation, reading articles off Twitter, and blog posts on this very topic. Who…

Monday Musings

Hello, Monday!

This weekend was all about family and alone time for myself.

Friday evening I found myself at synagogue with some family members to remember my dad's uncle. He is gone 15 years. Growing up he was the jokester of the family. Everyone always laughed and smiled when he was around. We would fill in MadLibs, play Uno, and sometimes he would even sneak me a piece of candy when my parents weren't looking. I loved when he would come and visit and share stories of his childhood. I miss him and often wonder what our relationship would be like today. I am lucky that his daughter and I are close. At synagogue it wasn't just about his yahrzeit; but also just being present. I usually go on the high holidays but in more "Me Time" I made a goal to attend services once a month. Our Rabbi's sermon is always current and has such deep meanings. It was a wonderful evening.

Saturday morning I took myself out breakfast, saw my therapist and decided to do some read…

Let's Talk......Social Media

Check out this video from  Lucie Fink. She is hysterical and has a video series on Refinery29. In the video she asked "Is Social Media doing more good than bad in the world?"

This question got me thinking about my own experience with Social Media. Every personality test I have taken, and people I have spoken with all call me an extrovert. First, I wonder if you can be both an extrovert and introvert? I believe I have tendencies from both spectrum's. Some would disagree with me; however that is my own personal opinion. Which brings me to my first point on social media.

1) Personal Opinions- They are everywhere. Facebook posts, Instagram comments, Tweets, etc....Lately as I have read more and more tweets and Facebook comments I have seen the attack on personal opinions. We have the right to say what we want, how we feel and shouldn't have to worry that someone will call us out. Yes, it's OK to disagree and state that on a post or tweet, but the name calling and di…

Let's Talk....Mental illness

Last night I joined @Gen_Twenty for their Twitter Chat.

If you ask my friends and family they will tell you I am a constant source of inspiration. I always have a smile on my face and I am the first to turn a negative situation into something positive. My colleagues from Gap always looked to me for what I call #PowerOfPositiveThinking moments. We would get visits from our DM or high level executives and everyone would scurry around worried, but not me. As a manager or leader I knew the calm presence was all the employees needed to do their job like it was any other day. Again, I was always throwing out positive phrases and the person they would turn to when they were stressed or worried.

What everyone didn't know was at that time and for a while before that I was battling my own inner demons. My anxiety has been high for the last four years. I masked the depression with Happy Hours, excuses as to why I bailed on friends, eating, and just ignoring my family and friends any chance…


This past Saturday, the coldest day of winter my family decided it would be a great idea to see the circus. I remember thinking are you kidding me? Thankfully the tent was heated and it wasn't all that bad. The walk however from the car to the tent, I think I almost blew away twice. 
I was hesitant to attend the circus, but I  so glad I did. The cast was extremely talented. It was fun for all ages. My cousins who are 3 and 6 and my father all had the same smile and amazement on their faces. 
It was the perfect distraction I needed for a weekend of crumminess. Below are some photos. 

XoXo, Tracy 

This Friday....Let's talk Friends

If you guessed by reading the title this post is going to relate to friendships. I am no expert but I have had some crazy bad and amazing good friendships throughout my 28 years. Friends have come and gone and as we grow up our relationships grow and develop but some friends are lost along the way. That doesn't make you a bad person. ( I'm still learning this).

At 28 I never realized how hard it would be to make friends. My mother grew up with three very close girlfriends. Our families remain super close. We get together during the holidays every year. I missed 2015 and let me tell you it still eating at me. Those 4 women, now 3 have been through so much. My mother's death. A divorce. The death of a spouse. What can we learn from all those tragic experiences is that you don't need 50+ friends. You need a core group that will stick with you through good and bad times. You need a group you can call at 2am to come fall asleep next to you. You need a small group that know…

Negative Talk

"I'll never meet someone."

"I hate that outfit on me."

I can't do that."

Ever find yourself speaking negative comments about yourself? I can't remember the first time I spoke negatively. I can tell you that in the past few years I continue to self sabotage myself with negative comments.

Friends and family are quick to point out negative comments like the ones above. Just the other day my sister, her friend and I were at dinner and they were both talking about their significant others. Without hesitation I stated " I will never get find someone and get married" and my sisters quick response was "their is a lid for every pot."

Why are we so hard one ourselves? What makes our minds consume negative thoughts? Is it just me? Sometimes I can catch myself but often I don't. As the words flow out of my mouth more and more I feel that I start to believe them. That isn't how I want to live. I can be positive with friends, family,…

Step Outside

To say I woke up surprised to see the white outside would be an understatement. I was not expecting to see close to 4 inches by the time I woke up this morning. After clearing off my car I decided to hit the road with my camera. I was feeling inspired by the flakes as they were falling and new I could get some good shots.

Lately I have been uninspired, not motivated and just feeling really down. Closing down our store, coming down with the flu and just being bed ridden had gotten to me. I was finally ready to be out and among the living.

Here are some shots from today. I am no professional photographer but I do enjoy getting out there and being behind the camera sometimes. Hopefully this is the start of a new inspiration project.



Because there is nothing worse than watching a loved one suffer.

Because there is nothing worse than watching a loved one lose their battle.

Because there is nothing worse than knowing someone you love can be diagnosed with this horrible disease.

Because I watched my mother suffer.

Because my mother lost her battle after 17 years of fighting.

Four wheels need what?

Let's just say I knew the first few weeks of funemployment were going to be filled with adulthood tasks that I have put off for some time.

What I didn't expect was what came after two hours of sitting waiting for my 1st stop: Oil Change. Thanks to Better Housekeeping and the Wendy Williams show I was occupied most of the time while sitting in Firestone. I know why I avoided daytime talk shows for the one reason....they are useless. Sure she was funny but boy was I glad to be done when they called my name halfway through, or so I thought. The nice mechanic mentioned my battery needed to be replaced ASAP ( he wrote it in all caps on my bill) or it wouldn't start on the next cold day. I guess I could have waited since we are currently having a heat wave in the middle of winter here in NJ. Nope, that wasn't the case, it needed to be replaced and right away.

My next stop was suppose to by the car wash, but to my delightful surprise they were closing the garage just as I p…