That is a wonderful question. One that I have asked myself for the past 10 years or so. This post isn't going to be rainbows and butterflies. This post is going to be exposing. This post may even turn out scary. I am going to be OK with that. I am starting a journey. I am starting to seek out answers. I am starting to really figure out who is "Me."
Known procrastinator here. In grade school I would wait to the list minute to work on a Diorama, remember those projects. I would put off studying for a test and cram right before or not even study at all. I managed to survive grade school and middle school. High School was another story, ( maybe a separate post). Let me be completely honest I was never a strong student. I didn't have the best attention span.
My childhood to an outsider would have looked as close to perfect as it could. Loving parents, a younger sister, a roof over my head, food on the table and really not having any care in the world. I am extremely blessed and sure some days I hate to admit it, I take it for granted. Even today as I am sitting writing this post and thinking back to those years.
They were carefree. They were fun. No stress. No anxiety. No depression.
Today, that is another story and the one I hope to transform as I take this journey. I don't know when or why it started but I am filled with anxiety, loneliness, and depression. I have also had my fair share of panic attacks. Do my friends and family know, well if they didn't they do now. I believe I did a pretty good job of hiding it; however that is not the right move. If you are reading this have any of the above and feel alone, YOU ARE NOT. Talk to someone. It can be anyone. But talk because if I learned anything this far and I'm only days into being open, it is that people generally want to help you as best they can. You may along the way find someone who doesn't, but overall you would be surprised.
With all that said I am going to end this post on a positive note. My colleague at the Yoga Studio I work at lent me this book and I seriously can't put it down. I wrote this post-it note and it is now on my bathroom mirror as a daily reminder. A reminder that is this my journey.